has been the most amazing adventure I've ever been on. I celebrated my first Mother's Day 19 years ago holding my precious new baby boy. It was a sweet and delightful time. My journey into motherhood started easily and the days were filled with laughter, books, smiles and joy.
As I started this road, I was thankful to have my own wonderful Mom as a role model. Someone who has always loved me as I am and encouraged me as I explored my world. Someone that challenged me, cheered for me and lifted me up in prayer. Oh, you can never know the power of a praying Mom. I'm so very thankful that God has given me an amazing and wonderful Mom. I wish I could be with you today Mom. I am thankful for you and I love you very much!
As I continued on this road, I learned that it isn't always easy. Bumps, bruises, sickness came ... temporary afflictions that were usually helped with a kiss and a hug and a cuddle with mom. The more that we walked though, the bigger the challenges sometimes became ... emergency rooms, chronic illnesses, miscarriage and heart failure. It is in those times that I found myself the one needing comfort. I was the one that needed to be held and kissed and comforted. I'm thankful for family and friends that have walked this road with me. I'm most thankful for a God who is always there. Always faithful. Always strong. It is during these low times that I have learned the most. The more vulnerable I have been, the more open to God's lessons my heart seems to be.
Our family is once again walking through a valley. I know that God has lessons for us to learn as we fall on our knees and depend on Him. I know that He is holding us when we are afraid, worried, and scared. I know that He is in control. I know He loves us. I know that He took our place and paid the penalty so that we can have life in Him. I know all these things and yet daily and sometimes more often than that, I'm having to give Him this burden. It is a process to continue to trust when there is nothing more that can be done.
I can't share details, but know that our family would greatly appreciate your prayers as we walk through this valley. I am thankful for our family and friends who surround us. I'm thankful for a Father who loves us completely, thoroughly - forever.
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