Well, this has been a day of both. I hope I can keep my focus on the positive. I've been trying - to keep my mind on the pure, good, lovely and upright. This can be hard to do when you are feeling overwhelmed, tired, sad and scared.
After spending much of the morning in tears, I was blessed to have notes and emails from sweet friends, a visit from 2 dear friends and several phone calls as well. I am richly blessed in the friends department. For that I am so very very thankful!!! What a amazing thing it is to receive encouragment from another. I've always known that it was a good thing, but I have never been in a place where I needed it so very much. I don't like feeling needy - or that I'm a burden. I have been repeatedly blessed by the love given to me by others. It's a precious thing to be on the receiving end of others being the hands of Christ to me and my family. Thank you dear friends!!!
A surprise gift came in the mail today - a case of the liquid formula that we use! I have no idea where it came from or how we could have gotten it. It will last us for a week! That is so nice. Eliana's feeding budget is a little high at the moment. We are using liquid formula as the powdered clogs the tubing. We must add powdered formula to both the liquid formula and the pumped milk in order to increase the calorie content. This little bit of powder has not been problematic. Anyway, we are buying large amounts of formula (my pumping is not so productive) and this was a sweet and unexpected blessing.
Rebecca will be selling some of her bracelets at an event at our church tomorrow night. Sally Clarkson will be speaking to moms and Rebecca will be one of the vendors. She is excited and a little nervous. She keeps asking if I think anyone will buy one of her bracelets. She is planning to make a sign tomorrow to let people know why she is selling the bracelets (her sweet sister Eliana prompted this outreach) and where the money will be going (all proceeds will benefit children needing heart surgery). If you think of it, say a little prayer for my sweet girl. She is doing a good thing. She has been working very hard to make bracelets this week.
That's all for now. It's 3am and time to go feed Eliana.
Love to you all,