We were facing something that was so big. It had been looming over us for months and the day was almost upon us. It was the day prior to Eliana’s open heart surgery.
Has it been a year already? In some ways the time has gone quickly, but in others it seems like so much longer. This has been the hardest time of my life – and yet it has also been filled with some of the sweetest times of my life as well. There were many, many times when I wondered if life would ever be good again as I was so overwhelmed. I wondered if I could ever be thankful for this path. I am grateful to say – YES! I am so thankful to have walked this path with our precious girl. I couldn’t answer any other way because any other path would be one without our beloved Eliana. Her very name is filled with such meaning ...
Eliana Joy – My God has answered with joy
I just read my blog entry from a year ago. Here's a link if you want to see it.
Not surprisingly, it made me start to cry. We’ve come a long way. We saw our ped today – she is such a gem. I reminded her that tomorrow was 1 year. She asked if I were going to look at pictures. I told her yes, I was planning to remind myself of all that I could from that day. I often do this with very significant events (like the birth of a child). I think that though it will be hard to see the pictures, that it is good to remember. It’s good to give thanks for the many, many blessings.
I will write more tomorrow as I reflect on that day. The day of my daughter’s healed heart.
I’m not sure what we will do as a family, though I’d like to do something special to celebrate this day. I want my children to remember the blessings – not just of this day – but of this time in our lives.