I'm going to have to adjust the date of this posting as it is techicnally already past midnight - but my sweet girl is 6 months old today! It's hard to believe that it's been that long and in other regards it seems much longer. The time has not flown though sometimes I do wonder where it has gone. The haze of the first several months has gone thankfully.
Thank you all so much for your words of encouragment and your prayers when I was feeling so sad the other day. I can't tell you how much it helps! I know I'm being carried. I know I am weak. I pray that God will use this time to mold me into the person that HE wants me to be. I understand that my emotions make some uncomfortable, but they are what they are. I don't need to be "fixed", but know that in time God will do what He wants to with me. I trust that He will guide me, He will restore me and He will fill my heart with His love and peace. What more could I ask for?! (Well, I could probably think of a few things, but in the grand scheme of things this is what matters.)
June 16th - the 16th of each month now has 2 markers on it for me. The first is Eliana's birthdate. The second is the date of her open-heart surgery. It has been two months now. Her heart is strong and doing great! Thank you God for this blessing. A friend of a friend's son went through surgery just a week after Eliana and has had major struggles. In fact, he just recently went home. I thank God for the healing He is doing for so many children - people that I'm following who have children facing some of the same struggles as Eliana.
I'll try to post more tomorrow. As usual it is very late here (2:20am) and I need to head to bed. We had a really fun evening tonight - well, all but poor Isaiah who fell asleep early and missed out on the fun. I tried to wake him, but he was worn out. We'll work on more fun tomorrow.
An early Happy Father's Day to the wonderful men in my life!