I'm still trying to pump and nurse Eliana. Today has been very difficult though. I don't want this to be what ends our trying to nurse.
I'm also trying to deal with other news which is breaking my heart. It's not mine to share yet.
ETA: Wanted to share a sweet moment today. I was holding Eliana and asked her "Do you love Mommy?" She responded with the biggest smile I've seen to date! It was just the right answer when I wasn' expecting one at all.
I know God is with me, but I'm feeling incredibly beat up right now. I've more than passed my limit. I have been sobbing all day long and am just worn out - physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.